March 22, 2012
I don’t love you…anymore.

I have been loving you, longing for you, dreaming about you and singing about you ever since the day you ungracefully walked out of my life…
I’d have given my soul just to hear your raspy caressing voice say hello to me…
I’d have killed to have you brush your soft and tender hand across my cheek…
I’d have agreed to freeze hell just to have your juicy full lips brush against mine…
I’d have given my last dime just to have you look into my eyes for one single second…
I’d have given my meal for the day just to have you hold my hand for assurity if only for a nanosecond…
I’d have given away my cell phone just to rest my head on your chest and hear your heartbeat…
I’d have given the world just to see you smile, just to hold your face lovingly in my hands, just to share a Letterman joke with you, just to dance to a song that hopefully won’t end…
But as I listened to one of ‘our’ melodies and dreamingly thought about you, waiting for the tear drops that never broke our appointment and always made it on time; I was shocked when the song ended and my eyes were drier than a well during a period of drought…
I once again played another one of ‘our’ melodies and it sounded more like an irritating clang of bells on a lazy Sunday afternoon…
I felt like covering my ears as the melody played and I came to the realization that I do not love you anymore…
I realized that no longer was I blinded by sentiment…
The mention of your name did not bring chills down my spine any longer…
The torn and only photograph of you that I had did not bring tingly sensations all over my body as it used to
The song that we ‘danced’ to did not bring dinosaur sized butterflies in my belly as it usually did
The melody that made me cry for you is the same melody that made me realize that I don’t need to cry for you any longer…
You can go on living your life now…
You’ll always have a special place in my heart, right on the left side of it, at the very back; for the place that you once occupied is now occupied by another…
It is his hand I am now longing for, his voice, his tender touch, and his lips that I now want. It is his whole body I want to bear hug…
And I know that I will love him like I once loved you one day….. GOODBYE.